Maybe this is a bit too personal, but I feel better venting here about it...

My mental health hasn't been the best lately.

I finally scheduled an appointment to see a doctor to talk about everything.

I've had anxiety my entire life and I've struggled with depressive thoughts for a long time.

I realized that my anxiety is stopping me from living my life how other people are able to

and I want to fix it not just for myself, but for my husband and our future family too.

I'm nervous about the appointment, but I know I need to do this to start to get better. 🩷

I want to be around for a long time. I want to be a good wife and a good mom.

I want to live without feeling anxious or sad and I know I will once I get help.

I guess I'm just leaving this entry here so I can look back on it in a few months when I'm hopefully doing a lot better than I am right now.

My husband has been so supportive and encouraging, and I feel a lot better knowing he'll be with me through all of it 🩷

Monday again... It feels like the weeks pass by too fast and too slow at the same time.

I was tempted to work over the weekend but I stopped myself... I'm trying to keep a good work-life balance ( ᕤ •̀_•́)ᕤ

Instead I played games with my friend! We played Peak and we actually made it pretty far surprisingly lol ♡

I don't have a lot of time these days to play games with my friends, but I'm happy when I do get to spend time with them!

I have a really big project to work on that im really excited for ! getting through the last of my comms so i can focus on it ~