I've been going to therapy and taking antidepressants for 2 months now and

its really weird reading my last entry... it almost feels like someone else

wrote it. It's been weeks since I've last felt depressed and even though I'm still

working on my anxiety, I've been doing so much better. The first few weeks staring my medication was really tough, but I'm really glad I stuck it out because I can't imagine my life off of them.

My mood is better, I'm going out more, I can do things alone without feeling terrified...

I doubt anyone is reading this but if you're also struggling with depression and anxiety I hope you can get the courage to get help like I did.

I felt so hopeless before and now I feel like I can finally start to breathe again.

Maybe this is a bit too personal, but I feel better venting here about it...

My mental health hasn't been the best lately.

I finally scheduled an appointment to see a doctor to talk about everything.

I've had anxiety my entire life and I've struggled with depressive thoughts for a long time.

I realized that my anxiety is stopping me from living my life how other people are able to

and I want to fix it not just for myself, but for my husband and our future family too.

I'm nervous about the appointment, but I know I need to do this to start to get better. 🩷

I want to be around for a long time. I want to be a good wife and a good mom.

I want to live without feeling anxious or sad and I know I will once I get help.

I guess I'm just leaving this entry here so I can look back on it in a few months when I'm hopefully doing a lot better than I am right now.

My husband has been so supportive and encouraging, and I feel a lot better knowing he'll be with me through all of it 🩷

Monday again... It feels like the weeks pass by too fast and too slow at the same time.

I was tempted to work over the weekend but I stopped myself... I'm trying to keep a good work-life balance ( ᕤ •̀_•́)ᕤ

Instead I played games with my friend! We played Peak and we actually made it pretty far surprisingly lol ♡

I don't have a lot of time these days to play games with my friends, but I'm happy when I do get to spend time with them!

I have a really big project to work on that im really excited for ! getting through the last of my comms so i can focus on it ~